my messy life

I have a messy life

just look at my apartment

the carpet needs a vacuum

the dishes must be done

and just like my apartment

my brain could use some cleaning

interruptions and excuses

trouble I can't outrun

in my messy mind

I am taking out the garbage

but no matter how I work

there's still more left to do

stolen conversations

and promises left broken

memories unwanted

and lies I thought were true

          back up the dump truck

          and let me fill it up

          it's damn near overflowing

          filled with more than just enough

in my messy life 

I have the best intentions

I know how to change my fate

and stop my worried mind

I'll take every example

of my brain's unwanted knowledge

push it to the sidelines

and leave it far behind

but that just won't work for me

my head keeps on working

planning my escape

from my messy mental home

but still I keep on trying

blind faith and meditation

more antidepressants 

old tricks I've never known

in my messy life

you'll see me here tomorrow

cleaning out the cobwebs

washing every window pane

saying someday it will be neater

until tomorrow happens

when I start to clean my messy life

and find it's still the same