sorry for myself

I could feel sorry for myself

I could think of lots of reasons

but right now I can't be bothered

because time is running out

there is only so much time

months and years and seasons

and I don't want to waste it

that's not what my life is all about

if I wanted to be depressed

like I did in childhood days

I could give you answers

to questions you never asked

but time is moving swiftly

and I'm changing my old ways

because I don't want to waste it

I believe I'm up to the task

          I know that I have problems

          in my head I'm keeping score

          maybe I can't solve them

          but I know there's something more

if I wanted to be miserable

I could do it in a minute

there are disagreements in my brain

that love to be center stage

but I don't have the time now

I won't let myself be in it

this is what will happen

when you reach a certain age

          I know that I have issues

          and my worries never end

          but I'm clear out of tissues

          and I don't need that again

I could feel sorry for myself

but I don't have the time now

the seconds are ticking

the sun is going down

I'm trying to be grateful

I know my life is mine now

and I will take advantage

while I'm still around