Tuesday, May 31, 2016
But you can get lonely
You know, man, I've been back at my apartment for a few days now and I'm beginning to think that I need to make some changes. Because I was afraid I was gonna go back home and do things and live life just exactly like I did before. And that's what's happened. And I won't have that.
What are you going to do about it, farmboy?
I don't know yet. I need a plan. I'm trying to give up some of my own habits but I don't have anything to replace them with. So what I need to do now is do some exploring in my mind and figure out how I want to live.
So far, a problem I have is the old isolation problem. I have to reach out; I can't really leave the apartment until I learn how to do steps and stairs, so I'm stuck here. Look, don't get me wrong, being at home is fuckin' great. But you can get lonely being by yourself all the fuckin' time.
So people are going to have to come see you at your place? What are you going to do, invite people over for coffee?
Well, uh, yeah...
I think that's a great idea, farmboy.
You know, that kind of thing. Maybe see if anybody wants to write songs or something. But I don't want to isolate myself anymore.
There it is, man: number one -- don't isolate so much.
Hopefully I'll go on to discover a number two, man. And then three.