I always wanted to be

I always wanted to be
whatever I was not
whatever was the new thing
whatever was smokin' hot
somebody who faced adventure
without a second thought
well, now I'm old and gray and tired
and I've given all I got
Lord forgive me
for wasting all this precious time

I always wanted to be
that fella over there
tall, thin, forever twenty
with a head of handsome hair
loaded with charisma
dances like Fred Aistaire
now my time is almost over
stuck inside a wheelchair
Lord forgive me
for wasting all this precious time

I always wanted to be
a man who had a home
friends and church and family
and no hunger for the unknown
now I have to live with
all the lack of seeds I've sown
but it's all right
I'm fine here all alone
Lord forgive me
for wasting all this precious time
forgive me
I wasted all my precious time

I always wanted to be
whatever I was not