I wake up each morning

I wake up every morning
look at my phone
so I can see nobody called
then I open up the email
to car insurance ads
and messages from nobody at all
it's a desperate situation
when bad luck calls your name
to use you as a palm
in its desperate little game
but no matter the ending
part of you remains
so they say
maybe I'll believe it anyway
maybe I won't
but if I don't
what do I believe instead?
that prayers are only words
overwrought and unheard
and never answered
and never answered?

I wake up each morning
look at my phone
so I can see nobody called
then I wobble to the bathroom
take a few hits
and try to forget it all