I want to feel peaceful

I want to feel peaceful

but peace won't come my way

it's not that I'm not trying

I work at it everyday

I close my eyes and breath

as deeply as I can

so why don't I feel peaceful

I don't understand

I want to feel peaceful

but peace is not inside me

I can't be the only one

there must be someone besides me

I try to quiet my mind

but my mind complains

about every little thing

that I cannot explain

          I worry about trying

          and I always try my best

          if I can't be peaceful

          can I get some rest?

I want to feel peaceful

that's all I really need

I'm not sure meditation

is as good as smoking weed

but still I keep on doing it

though I don't know what it's about

I operate on two speeds

breathe in

breathe out