missing

I went looking for myself

but I was missing

I couldn't find me

no matter how hard I looked

I looked under bridges

I looked under rocks

I looked at art and movies

and children's picture books

I looked so hard to find myself

pity how I tried

the one place I forgot to look

was hidden deep inside

I went looking for my story

but it was missing

somewhere with my history

it vanished into the air

I searched the whole town over

for whatever I could find

but everywhere I went

there was nothing there

I looked so hard to see myself

not knowing what I'd find

the one place I forgot to look

was hidden in my mind

          Lord, give me the courage

          to face myself within

          I believe the time is right

          let the games begin

I went looking for an answer

but I didn't know the question

it never occured to me

to look at first things first

somewhere I was damaged

my bearings lost control

it's either nothing or everything

I don't know which is worse

I tried so hard to be myself

but it was tearing me apart

the one place I forgot to look

was deep inside my heart