breathing

I listen to my breathing
I want to feel calm

but trouble is inside me

ticking like a bomb

I can feel it coming

like a crest upon a wave

why do my emotions

have to misbehave

I listen for the footsteps

walking down the hall

but all I hear is silence

there is no sound at all

I always live in conflict

it fits me like a glove

preventing me from pleasure

separating me from love

so, where then do I wander

what is there to see

I feel unhappiness brewing

deep inside of me

time to sound the warning

it is time now not to feel

any way I turn now

is an unfair deal

I listen to my breathing

hoping that it helps

me to find a reason

to take care of myself

I can feel it coming

there is nothing I can do

in my time of darkness

all I seek is you