one step ahead

all my life I've been living

one step short of disaster

I know it's on its way

I thought I took all my emotions

and put them out to pasture

but they've coming back today

I worry about

everything outside my mind

all of the problems and fears

I could've left behind

I can't run fast enough

to outrun the words that I said

but I'm one step ahead

I am afraid of everything

the future might hold for me

I'm shaking in fear

I'm tired of this fight

it's getting old for me

I need to disappear

I worry about

the deeds I've left undone

I live in fear

over what I've become

I'm drowning fast

in oceans of regret

but I'm one step ahead

I pray that someday

I'll find some kind of peace

but I'm not holding my breath

I've thought that maybe

my sorrow will cease

and there'll be nothing left

I worry about 

what I can't control

the state of sheer panic

that's surrounding my soul

but still I keep on

working for my daily bread

just one step ahead