Thursday, July 14, 2011

right outside my window


there's a world out there
right outside my window
I can see it
I know it's there
made up of children and dogs
friends and family
and I could be among them
if I dare
but my fate is different
and my life is alone
and I have all I need
at home
I don't need to see you
I don't need to touch you
I don't need to listen
and I don't need to talk
I stay in my apartment
where everything's safe
with the blinds fully drawn
and the front door always locked
where no one can touch me
and no one can harm me
and no one can hurt me
but myself

and I can't explain it
I don't know what I can do
maybe it's my DNA
perhaps that's where it begins
all I know is I can't help it
maybe it's my penance
for all of my transgressions
and my measly mortal sins
somehow I turned out different
from all of you out there
I could rail at the heavens
and scream how it's not fair

but I don't see that working
I cannot take a chance
all I hear is silence
and the ticking of the clock
I stay in my apartment
and everything's safe
with the blinds fully drawn
and the front door locked
where no one can touch me
and no one can harm me
and no one can hurt me
but myself

there's a world out there
right outside my window
and I could be in it
if I knew just what to do
and in my desperation
I wander through the quiet
feeling like a child
wanting to be you
thinking maybe you could teach me
thinking maybe I could learn
but those feelings overtake me
and they always return
I'm crying out to you
reaching out to you
maybe your door is open
but I'm too afraid to knock
so I stay in my apartment
where everything's safe
with the blinds fully drawn
and the front door always locked
where no one can touch me
and no one can harm me
and no one can hurt me
but myself
and no one can hurt me
but myself
and no one can hurt me...

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