considering: atheism and suicide

I'm thinking:

maybe god does not exist
maybe god is just a lie 
'cause I pray
and none of it does any good
my words to god just passes by
so maybe there is no god
and maybe there is no sense
in continuing this life
this living in the present tense
maybe any good I've done
is worth nothing to anyone

okay god
do something 
answer me 
prove to me that you exist
there must have been something
instruction that I have missed
I do not know what I can do
the truth is not there to see
oh my god
what have I done
why have you forsaken me
why have you forsaken me
why have you forsaken me