that final step/rewrite 1

he made the perfect plan
like he was going off to college
leaving home for the very first time
it took everything he had
every single scrap of knowledge
to be the victim of a victimless crime
he did all the research
lonely nights on the computer
interviews and articles and books
there wasn't any class
no way to hire a tutor
for the subject of the interest that he took
and when he was finished
he said there's nothing to it
he lit a match and inhaled
one last cigarette
but when it came the time
he found out he couldn't do it
he'd never figured out that final step

he drove to the gun store
to buy his chosen weapon
paid for it with his trusty visa card
then he walked inside the pharmacy
to fuel his Armageddon 
the Walgreens out on harbor boulevard
he stumbled to the corner
to mail his goodbye note
"so long everyone" was all it read
there was a couple teardrops
smudging the sentence that he wrote
but there was no mistaking what it said
and when he was finished
he felt beat up and tired
tuckered out from doing all the prep
but when it came the time
he was oddly uninspired
he'd never figured out that final step