I was running with scissors/ I was playing to win/ I was taking my chances/ oh, where to begin/ I was doing it all/ it was all I could do/ when the curtain came down/ and then there was you/ I pray for guidance, sweet Jesus/ this is why I pray/ I'm all used to this year/ and it's going away
in the book of your life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long time ago/ I remember everything/ and probably you don't/ I've vanished into dust/ going wherever it may go/ spinning into circles/ forgotten by the wind/ do you remember/ when I used to be your friend
I will not be noticed/ I am just a footnote/ meant to be ignored/ by everyone but me/ all of my words are/ stuck inside my throat/ I am a ghost/ one you'll never see/ invisible as twilight/ in the winter sky above/ do you remember/ when I was someone you loved
(bridge) I am the one/ that you considered baggage/ you are the one/ who caused all the damage
I will be forgotten/ I am just a footnote/ someone who would answer/ when you called my name/ you told me that you cared I guess that was a misquote/ I'm not saying you were wrong/ but you're the one to blame/ guilty as charged/ judge and jury in my mind/ do you remember/ I'm the one you left behind
in your book of life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long, long time ago
it's too cold to walk/ the heater's up high/ the time has come/ to bid 2020 goodbye/ such an awful year/ it was fucked all the way/ but now it's finally over/ 2021 is on its way/ no more trump/ he makes me so fuckin' mad/ he's the worst damn president/ that we've ever had/ but put that aside/ and be of good cheer/ with him out of office/ it will be a good year
thermostat trembles/ heater goes on/ big snow is falling/ out on the front lawn/ the sun's setting early/ hot cocoa, not beer/ everything's saying/ winter is here
the trees have no leaves/ dark clouds surround me/ visions of December/ gather around me/ like children full of/ holiday cheer/ 'tis the season, folks/ winter is here
(bridge) pull up the blankets/ put on the tea/ are you ready for/ the Christmas tree
jackets and parkas/ wool hat and gloves/ songs of merriment/ peace, joy and love/ Santa is cruising/ the atmosphere/ everything's saying/ winter is here
I wish I was young again/ but with a completely different childhood/ maybe I would have turned out better/ then again, maybe not/ I wish I was young again/ at an Ivy League college/ with a future right in front of me/ that daddy's money would have bought/ maybe, then, I'd be successful/ instead of being who I am/ why does the world insist/ I have to be my own man
outside the rain is pounding hard/ there's an ocean in your own back yard/ I hope you know where your children are/ it's coming down/ reminds me when I was a child/ I never really learned to smile/ I let some oneelse change the dial/ I'm leaving town
(bridge) remember when I was innocent/ before everything went wrong/ I don't think it's a coincidence/ that I knew you all along
it's Christmas Eve and I'm alone/ stranded by the telephone/ wishing I could go back home/ where I spent my childhood days/ everything was better then/ a stranger could turn into a friend/ I don't know why it had to end/ I need to find a way/ to bring some light into this heart of mine/ to remind me of the ones left behind/ I need to find some way to believe/ in the world again/ it's Christmas Eve
in my dreams/ there are presents to wrap/ cookies to bake/ and people to spend the day with/ in my life/ there are bills to pay/ with money I don't have/ sometimes I think/ Christmas Day is a myth/ but I know it's real/ it's in the way I feel/ if the fates allow/ I'm wishing you/ a merry Christmas/ in the here and now
in the book of your life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long time ago/ I remember everything/ and you probably don't/ I've vanished into dust/ going wherever it may go/ spinning into circles/ forgotten by the wind/ hey, do you remember/ when I used to be your friend
I will not be noticed/ I am just a footnote/ meant to be ignored/ by everyone but me/ all of my words are/ stuck inside my throat/ I am like a ghost/ one you'll never see/ invisible as twilight/ dark blue up above/ hey, do you remember/ when I was someone you loved
(bridge) I am the one/ that you considered baggage/ you are the one/ who caused all the damage
I will be forgotten/ I am just a footnote/ someone who would answer/ when you called my name/ you told me that you cared I guess that was a misquote/ I'm not saying you were wrong/ but you're the one to blame/ guilty as charged/ judge and jury my mind/ hey do you remember/ I'm the one you left behind
in your book of life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long, long time ago
headphones on/ music's ready/ some of this stuff/ sounds like spaghetti/ but you still can sing along/ if you try/ headphones on/ now it's time/ for singers who gargle with/ turpentine/ but you can still sing along/ I'll tell you why/ the main part of music's joys/ is simply making a lot of noise/ like any healthy girl or boy/ at a fast food restaurant/ headphones on/ music's ready/ you can sing along/ if you want
fear/ is my constant companion/ I try to abandon it/ but it won't go/ fear/ keeps me a prisoner/ I see no reason here/ nothing I need to know/ but you/ tell me I can be brave/ but I cannot save/ myself any longer/ no matter where I hide/ the pain I hold inside/ is stronger/ than I will ever be/ but I still can see/ that I belong here
love/ is a trespassing stranger/ I can sense the danger/ from where I stand/ love/ may not exist for me/ as far as i can see/ it's not part of the plan/ but you/ follow me into the night/ you believe I could be right/ you believe in me/ and you/ see who I am/ you understand/ the world that I see/ and that I am trying/ there's no denying/ that I belong here
hope/ is all I've ever known/ it's my way back home/ when trouble surrounds me/ hope/ is all I've ever had/ it doesn't treat me half as bad/ as the world around me/ but you/ you tell me about courage/ even though I'm discouraged/ in this game of living/ I hope before I pass/ I'll find peace at last/ my sins self-forgiven/ because no matter what I do/ when I look at you/ I know/ I belong here/ I belong here
the sky is gray and silver/ and the rain falls down like tears/ Christmas time is coming/ and I am staying here/ in this ol' apartment/ where I spend every night/ but this night, it is special/ it is the season of light
my family, they are scattered/ and I am all alone/ still, it feels cheerful/ to spend Christmas here at home/ I know I could feel lonesome/ but instead I'm feeling right/ I look at snow through the window/ welcome to the season of light
if you ever get to New Orleans/ call me up on the phone/ I don't like to talk to anyone/ but, to you, I'm always home/ since you've gone, it's so damn quiet/ I don't like it very much/ I miss your northern way of talking/ all night long, I miss your touch/ you can tell me what it means/ if you ever get to New Orleans
I'm in my work clothes/ I am ready for the day/ chores and possibilities/ come take me away/ I know what I'm doing/ I'm responsible as hell/ there's nothing I can't do/ and I do it so well/
I've got my liscense/ for whatever you need/ your rules and instructions/ are my own to heed/ I know what I'm doing/ you got something I want/ the desire and fury/ of a Texas debutante
it's time to roll up my sleeves and get to work/ it's the only way I will conquer this hurt/ wake up in the morning, walk the dog/ pour a cup of coffee/ in your special mug/ now the day's begun/ you're mister number one/ time for up and at 'em/ go and please the folks/ laugh at all their stupid jokes/ every sir and madam/ there stands adventure beyond your dreams/ but first you gotta/ roll ups your sleeves
fear/ is my constant companion/ I try to abandon it/ but it won't go/ fear/ keeps me a prisoner/ I see no reason here/ nothing I should know/ but you/ tell me I'm brave/ but I cannot save/ myself any longer/ no matter where I hide/ the pain I hold inside/ is stronger/ than I will ever be/ but I still can see/ that I belong here
love/ is a trespassing stranger/ I can sense the danger/ from where I stand/ love/ may not exist for me/ as far as i can see/ it's not part of the plan/ but you/ follow me into the night/ you believe I could be right/ you believe in me/ and you/ see who I am/ you understand/ the problems that I see/ and that I am trying/ there's no denying/ that I belong here
hope/ is all I've ever known/ it's my way back home/ when trouble surrounds me/ hope/ is all I've ever had/ it doesn't treat me as bad/ as the world around me/ but you/ you tell me about courage/ even though I'm discouraged/ in this game of living/ I hope before I pass/ I'll find it at last/ my sins self-forgiven/ because no matter what I do/ when I look at you/ I know/ I belong here/ I belong here
I am always waiting/ for something new/ I noticed your face/ could it be you/ I am always waiting/ for life to come take me/ but it always escapes me/ no matter what I do/ but maybe if you/ show me some attention/ I'll take my affection/ for you to keep/ yeah, maybe if you/ show me a reaction/ I'll see satisfaction/ on your face when you sleep
there is no end to my love for you/ when I'm gone, you'll know what to do/ I hope you remember/ how you made me smile/ I hope your memory is as long/ as a country mile/ without your love, I would not make it through/ thank you
how can I tell you what you mean to me/ I wish it was like it used to be/ but that doesn't erase/ the joy that we once had/ I'm so grateful/ that the good outweighed the bad/ had you not been there/ I wouldn't have known what to do/ thank you
fear/ is my constant companion/ I try to abandon it/ but it won't go/ fear/ keeps me a prisoner/ I see no reason here/ nothing I should know/ but you/ tell me I'm brave/ but I cannot save/ myself any longer/ no matter where I hide/ the pain inside/ is stronger/ than I will ever be/ but I still can see/ that I belong here
love/ is a trespassing stranger/ I can sense the danger/ from where I stand/ love/ may not exist for me/ as far as i can see/ it's not part of the plan/ but you/ follow me into the night/ you believe I could be right/ you believe in me/ and you/ see who I am/ you understand/ that I am trying/ and there's no denying/ that I belong here
hope/ is all I've ever known/ it's my way back home/ when trouble surrounds me/ hope/ is all I've ever had/ it doesn't treat me as bad/ as the world around me/ and you/ you encourage my leaving/ I hope I break even/ in this game of living/ I hope before I pass/ that I'll find it at last/ my sins self-forgiven/ because no matter what I do/ when I look at you/ I know/ I belong here
fear/ is my constant companion/ I tried to abandon it/ but it wouldn't go/ fear/ keeps me a prisoner/ I see no reason here/ nothing I should know/ but you/ tell me I'm brave/ but I cannot save/ myself any longer/ no matter where I hide/ the pain the pain inside/ is stronger/ than I will ever be/ but I still can see/ that I belong here
love/ is a trespassing stranger/ I can sense the danger/ from where I stand/ love/ may not exist for me/ as far as my eyes can see/ it's not part of the plan/ but you/ follow me into the night/ you believe I could be right/ you believe in me/ and you/ see who I am/ you understand/ that I am trying/ and I'm not denting/ that I belong here
hope/ is all I've ever known/ it's my way back home/ when trouble surrounds me/ hope/ is all I've ever had/ it doesn't treat me as bad/ as the world around me/ and you/ you encourage my leaving/ I hope I break even/ in this game of living/ I hope before I pass/ that I'll find it at last/ my sins self-forgiven/ because no matter what I do/ when I look at you/ I know/ I belong here
in your book of life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long time ago/ I remember everything/ and you probably don't/ I've vanished into dust/ going wherever it may go/ spinning into circles/ forgotten by the wind/ hey, do you remember/ when I used to be your friend
I will not be noticed/ I am just a footnote/ meant to be ignored/ by everyone but me/ all of my words are/ stuck inside my throat/ I am like a ghost/ one you'll never see/ invisible as twilight/ dark blue up above/ hey, do you remember/ when I was someone you loved
(bridge) I am the one/ that you considered baggage/ you are the one/ who caused all the damage
I will be forgotten/ I am just a footnote/ I'm someone who would answer/ when you called my name/ I know I am gone/ I guess that's all that she wrote/ I'm not saying you were wrong/ I'm saying you're the one to blame/ guilty as charged/ in the jury of my mind/ hey do you remember/ I'm the one you left behind
in your book of life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long, long time ago
doctor, doctor/ emergency/ there's something wrong/ inside of me/ maybe you can look and see/ my problem's off the chart/ I try to be in love, but yet/ love is something I forget/ I've got a right to be upset/ and here's the cruelest part/ I was born without a heart
I'm always cursing my bad luck/ problem is, I know I'm stuck/ on the ground and looking up/ it's turned into an art/ I can't feel and I don't know why/ I cannot laugh and I cannot cry/ life is a mistake and I'm/ stumbling in the dark/ I was born without a heart
(bridge) the missing pieces inside of me/ make me blind to what I see
call somebody/ 911/ I'm so tired of feeling numb/ the way I live ain't any fun/ I need a running start/ a heart is what I hope to find/ I've lived enough inside my mind/ I hope I find it in time/ I want to feel the spark/ I was born without a heart/ I was born without a heart
in the book of your life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long time ago/ I remember everything/ and you probably don't/ I've vanished into dust/ going wherever it may go/ spinning into circles/ forgotten by the wind/ hey, do you remember/ when I used to be your friend
I will not be read/ I am just a footnote/ meant to be ignored/ by everyone but me/ all of my words are/ stuck inside my throat/ I am like a ghost/ one that you can't see/ invisible as twilight/ dark blue up above/ hey, do you remember/ when I was someone you loved
(bridge) read the words/ consider the message/ you are the one/ who made all the wreckage
I will be forgotten/ I am just a footnote/ I'm someone who would answer/ when you called my name/ I know I am gone/ I guess that's all that she wrote/ I'm not saying you were wrong/ I'm saying you're the one to blame/ guilty as charged/ in the jury of my mind/ hey do you remember/ I was who you left behind
in the book of your life/ I am just a footnote/ someone you once knew/ a long, long time ago
you're taking that first step/ I can see you trying/ I can see that you're upset/ that, there's no denying/ but you're going to do it/ I know you can/ life today does not have/ any other plans/ all you gotta do/ is put one foot after another, brother/ that's what you gotta do
I did what I had to do/ I finally got away from you/ I hide inside myself/ wishing I was someone else/ but now I see the pain is ending/ I can see myself pretending/ I've got magic up my sleeve/ I know when it's time to leave
don't come around here anymore/ I am not what you're looking for/ I am someone else instead/ the man I was before is dead/ I don't need you, I have found/ so I'm not going to stay around/ there's life ahead I can't conceive/ I know when it's time to leave
doctor, doctor/ emergency/ there's something wrong/ inside of me/ maybe you can look and see/ my problem's off the chart/ I try to be in love, but yet/ love is something I forget/ I know I shouldn't be upset/ and here's the saddest part/ I was born without a heart
I'm always cursing my bad luck/ problem is, I know I'm stuck/ on the ground and looking up/ it's turned into an art/ I can't feel and I don't know why/ I cannot laugh and I cannot cry/ all is a mistake and I'm/ stumbling in the dark/ I was born without a heart
(bridge) the missing pieces inside of me/ make me blind to what I see
call somebody/ 911/ I want my sadness to be done/ the way I live ain't any fun/ I need a running start/ a heart is what I hope to find/ I've lived enough with just my mind/ I hope I find it in time/ I need to feel the spark/ I was born without a heart/ I was born without a heart
doctor, doctor/ emergency/ there's something wrong/ inside of me/ maybe you can look and see/ what's tearing me apart/ I try to be in love, but yet/ love is something I forget/ I know I shouldn't be upset/ and here's the saddest part/ I was born without a heart
I'm always cursing my bad luck/ problem is, I know I'm stuck/ on the ground and looking up/ it's turned into an art/ I don't feel and I don't know why/ I cannot laugh and I cannot cry/ all is a mistake and I'm/ stumbling in the dark/ I was born without a heart
call somebody/ 911/ I want my sadness to be done/ the way I live, it ain't any fun/ I need a running start/ my heart is what I hope to find/ I've lived enough with just my mind/ I hope I find it in time/ I hope I hit the mark/ I was born without a heart/ I was born without a heart
I don't want to see anybody right now/ I just need some time alone/ problem is, I don't know how/ everybody needs me for something I can't give/ I know this is no kind of life to live/ I don't want to talk to anybody today/ I need some time by myself/ so I can figure out the way/ I've been struggling, I've been ill at ease/ there's nobody I want to please/ I've been sad to the nth degree/ I've got to get out of here/ I'm waiting for some magic to appear
call the doctor/ emergency/ there's something wrong/ inside of me/ maybe you can look and see/ what's tearing me apart/ I try to be in love, but yet/ love is something I forget/ I know I shouldn't be upset/ and here's the saddest part/ I was born without a heart
I'm always cursing my bad luck/ problem is, I know I'm stuck/ on the ground and looking up/ it's turned into an art/ I don't feel and I don't know why/ I cannot laugh and I cannot cry/ all is a mistake and I'm/ stumbling in the dark/ I was born without a heart
call somebody/ 911/ I want my sadness to be done/ this way I live ain't any fun/ I need a running start/ so I can catch up to you/ find a heart and start anew/ you can tell me what to do/ I need somebody smart/ I was born without a heart/ I was born without a heart
I think too much and that's my problem/ my brain is working overtime/ too many thoughts and my life surrounds them/ I've got a sad and troubled mind/ let me feel the autumn wind/ let me feel the warmth of the sun/ don't make me go back again/ I have left too much undone
(chorus) take me with you when you go/ this life's the only one I know/ come and take me far away/ where I can see the light of day
he does a lot/ but he never talks/ he works the day away/ like there's nothing else to do/ if he's hurting/ he keeps on working/ he works the day away/ to get his mind off you/ so do him a favor/ don't call him on the phone/ stay away from places/ where you used to go/ he doesn't need to hear/ anything you have to say/ he works the day away
call the doctor/ emergency/ there's something wrong/ inside of me/ maybe you can look and see/ what's tearing me apart/ I try to be in love, but yet/ love is something I forget/ I know I should not be upset/ but I don't know how to start/ I was born without a heart
I'm always cursing my bad luck/ problem is, I know I'm stuck/ on the ground and looking up/ it's turned into a work of art/ I don't feel and I don't know why/ I cannot laugh and I cannot cry/ all is a mistake and I'm/ stumbling in the dark/ I was born without a heart
(bridge) I have two legs and an open mind/ but that's not what I hoped to find
call somebody/ 911/ I want my sadness to be done/ this way I live ain't any fun/ I need a running start/ so I can catch up to you/ you take away all of my blues/ someone tell me what to do/ I was born without a heart/ I was born without a heart
Thanksgiving was a good day. I went to my brother's house and his wife and her mother made a wonderful meal. And for once, I didn't eat too much. I didn't have to feel that bloating feeling you get when you eat too much. It was sure tempting because everything was so good.
That sounds very nice, farmboy. This being such a weird year and all, I'm just glad you didn't spend it by yourself, eating boxed macaroni and cheese.
We had real macaroni and cheese! It was all so great. The best thing, of course, is that I didn't have to spend it by myself. With COVID and everything, I really treasure being with people I love. I feel bad for everybody who was alone. It's hard to spend holidays alone. I know, I've done it. It's more than just a drag. It feels horrible, and I'm very thankful I got to be around family.
There's a lot to be thankful for this year. Everything seems more under control now that Joe Biden and Kamala Harris were elected, and vaccines for COVID are finally in sight. I have few financial and health problems and I have a guitar and the ability to play music. And I have you to talk to.
Ah, shucks.
I'm serious. It really helps to have somebody to talk to. It means the world to me.
So, this year...with everything that has gone wrong, it's really great to see the changes that, hopefully, will be happening. What a relief. I am very thankful for the changes, and for the holiday. It was a good one.
so you're back again/ my untrusted friend/ spreading your disease in my life/ I thought you'd go/ what do I know/ you're back again tonight/ your name is trouble/ I know that now/ but I'm gonna make it through/ somehow/ but you make it hard/ for me to be myself/ I search for clues, and patterns, too/ a science that's named after you/ why don't you go after someone else
I tried to write you/ but it did not work/ I tried my best/ to manage the hurt/ but I ran out of luck/ I cried "what the fuck"/ but still you would not read it/ love betrays you every time/ especially if you need it/ can you show me what to do/ when a fool's in love with you/ I wait every night to/ hear you calling me
nothing on my mind/ except the ones I leave behind/ innocent as the day you were born/ you'll be where I was/ if they ask you, just because/ is the answer that they will not ignore/ save me, friends, for I am lost/ the price I pay is worth the cost/ I will not be denied my existence/ this is how my life begins/ with the world learning how to spin/ I have nothing, if not persistence
nothing in my mind/ except the dreams I leave behind/ broken down and unfulfilled/ as I continue on/ I ask: where has hope gone?/ last time I looked, it was around here still/ there are visions yet to see/ but they will not come to me/ they lie around, unused/ I am standing on the street/ eyes downward in defeat/ it's no wonder I'm confused
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it may be hard to conceive it/ but it's true/ I always believed/ that tomorrow was coming/ there always was something/ else to do/ but now those days have gone/ and I swiftly have moved on/ to the winter of my years/ someday you'll be like me/ and all that you see/ will someday disappear
I was once like you/ I took it all for granted/ I tried to understand it/ but I failed/ the world in my heart/ spoke through me like thunder/ I was left to wonder/ what would prevail/ but you, you hold my hope/ like you're a telescope/ viewing stars that I used to see/ I'm praying everyday/ that you don't turn out this way/ you don't need the sadness/ that is me
I am hanging around/ waiting for something to begin/ anything, anything/ I can't be silent again/ there must be something in my brain/ that needs to be brought out/ I know it's in there somewhere/ whatever it is all about/ hear me, world, here I am/ you've been waiting just for me/ I have words and I have stories/ all of which belong to me
I took a walk around the neighborhood/ I was up to no damn good/ casing people's houses/ sizing up the cars/ looking for my fortune/ I need not go far/ everything's here/ and I'm standing near/what sweet relief/ I am a thief
you see me but you cannot tell/ that I will turn your life to hell/ all your belongings/ do I crave/ and I do love/ to misbehave/ let's see what's on top/ and what's underneath/ I am a thief
(bridge) try to protect yourselves/ it won't do any good/ in my dreams, I'm the king/ of your neighborhood
everything belongs to me/ as far as my eyes can see/ your computers and/ your TV screen/ this is my choice/ I'm a machine/ I can cause you untold grief/ I am a thief
you need to be famous/ I can smell it on you/ dangling from off the hook/ you need too be famous/ I see it in you/ puppy dog eyes with a come-hither look/ why do you need the attention/ of people you do not know/ I know they're your best intensions/ and they keep you from being alone
I have the painting you gave me/ with waves breaking on the shore/ of western Ireland/ I went there once before/ in happier days/ days of wonder in the wind/ if I could, you know/ I would go back again/ to stare at the sky/ and know that I/ can feel free
I know the sailor's songs/ they push me onward, it's true/ they echo in my memory/ a world I never knew/ give me imagination/ tell me who I am/ let me believe in anything/ I know well that I can/ stare into the sea/ and know that I/ can feel free
meet me at the station/ hurry, don't delay/ this is the last time I'll see you/ I'm going away/ don't forget about me/ now and then I'll cross your mind/ when you're searching through your memory/ I hope I'm the one you find
(chorus) please don't treat me like a stranger/ that's the cruelest thing to do/ being with you was such sweet danger/ and that's why I'm in love with you
there's supposed to be a miracle/ in the darkness of your eyes/ you think nobody sees it/ but I do/ you look in the mirror/ and it comes as a surprise/ but it's true/ all those people told you/ in your history/ that you mean nothing in the end/ but me, I look at you/ I see your mystery/ and I thank God/ that's you're my friend
all the mistakes that I have made/ have added up together/ to make me the man I am/ for worse or for better/ and I have made so many mistakes/ a whole lot more than just a few/ but the worst were the mistakes/ I made with you
(chorus) please forgive me/ don't ignore me/ this is my side/ of the story/ I'm the one who should have won your heart/ please forgive/ don't ignore me/ I've got the facts laid out before me/ you know we should never be apart
all the wishes I have made/ don't add up to anything/ they just leave me here alone/ to see what problems they can bring/ and I have wished upon a star/ for me to have the love of you/ but no matter where I( am/ those wishes never do some true
(chorus) please forgive me/ don't ignore me/ this is my side/ of the story/ I'm the one who should have won your heart/ please forgive/ don't ignore me/ I've got the facts laid out before me/ you know we should never be apart
will you dance with me/ I'm so tired of being alone/ when I look at you/ I feel like I've come home/ you look to me/ like someone I should know/ I could be your/ jukebox romeo
will you dance with me/ join me on the gym room floor/ you got everything I need/ I don't want any more/ put your arms around me/ dance real smooth and slow/ I could be your/ jukebox romeo
(bridge) sometimes I wish/ I had nothing to do/ but stay here on the sidelines/ and look at you
will you dance with me/ you know, it could be fun/ on my hit parade of lovers/ you could be number one/ if you plan on leaving/ I still want to go/ I could be your/ jukebox romeo
I'm committing myself to you/ everything I do/ I'd give the world if you would be with me/ please don't take these words lightly/ Heaven knows, it might be/ the only way to set those feelings free/ if you accept me/ I will do the best I can/ to make you proud of me/ and everything I am/ I can't rest until I know it's true/ I'm committing myself to you
you are all I dream about/ the one I can't live without/ what can I do to make you see/ I would climb the highest mountain/ I've spent my life counting/ the days till you're with me/ if you allow me/ I'll share my love with you/ if you're not with me/ no one else would do/ walking down the avenue/ I'm committing myself to you
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it may be hard to conceive it/ but it's true/ I always took for granted/ that tomorrow was coming/ there always was something/ else to do/ but now those days have gone/ and I swiftly have moved on/ to the winter of my years/ someday you'll be like me/ and all that you see/ will someday disappear
I used to feel free/ but the joy of being alive/ vanished before my eyes/ I was just like you/ time went so fast/ in the single blink of an eye/ all those years flew by/ I never knew/ for me those times have passed/ and I am here at last/ with my body shifting gears/ someday you'll be like me/ and then, my friend, you'll see/ how quickly we all disappear
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it may be hard to conceive it/ but it's true/ but it's true
I have no words/ everything I say has been said before/ I'm so disturbed/ I always thought that there would be so much more/ I'll find my way out of the mountains/ I'll hike to the deep blue sea/ it's been so many days and counting/ there must be a way back to me
I'm so frustrated, so tired, so bored. But at least Joe Biden and Kamala Harris won the election. Thank God. Maybe we can get to some kind of normality in the government. I look at all the fuckin' chaos over the past four years. It's gonna take a lot of work to move past that, but I'm confident that we can.
I'm glad you're glad, farmboy. I'm glad, too. Now what are you so frustrated?
Oh, I'm just tired of having to make it through every day with this fuckin' pandemic going on. It's gloomy and cold outside, and I haven't walked for a couple of days. But I'm still very happy about the election, and I can't forget that.
It's good to be grateful.
Yeah, that's what I am. Can't forget that.
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it may be hard to conceive it/ but it's true/ I always believed/ that tomorrow was coming/ there always was something/ else to do/ but now those days have gone/ and I quickly have moved on/ to the winter of my years/ someday you'll be like me/ and all that you see/ will someday disappear
I used to feel free/ but the joy of being alive/ vanished before my eyes/ and left me blue/ time went so fast/ in the single blink of an eye/ all those years flew by/ I never knew/ now take a look at me/ and all you will see/ are shades of gray growing in my beard/ someday you will be old/ days are short and nights are cold/ memories disappear
I once knew youth/ a long, long time ago/ a time I used to know/ I was just like you/ you stand in my footsteps/ ignoring tomorrow/ time is only ours to borrow/ sad but true/ for me those times have passed/ and I am here at last/ with my body shifting gears/ someday you'll be like me/ and then, my friend, you'll see/ how quickly we all disappear
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it may be hard to conceive it/ but it's true/ but it's true
just what would happen/ if you took today off/ from everything/ that you have to do/ would you have a good time/ or would you be bored/ waiting for the day/ to completely be through/ I don't know, but I'm gonna try/ the day will pass in the blink of an eye/ and everything is going to be fine/ it's no big deal/ it's just what I feel/ taking the day off/ could be good for me
after all you've been through/ after all you've done/ did you ever think/ maybe you weren't the one/ who was made for love/ in an uncertain land/ it's not up to you/ to understand
personally, I think you're wrong/ and I've heard enough/ from everything I've seen/ you are not unloved/ there are many people/ who think the world of you/ you probably don't believe it/ but it's true
remember how it used to me?/ yeah, I don't remember, either/ I've spent too long in the here and now/ I believe it's time for a breather/ take me back when life was simple/ even if it never was/ back when you could ask a question/ and the answer was "because"
remember how it used to be?/ that was a long time ago/ all those memories still exist/ but exactly where/ I do not know/ take me back when I was young/ and the world has promise/ now all I see is crime to me/ human beings being dishonest
I am waiting/ for the results to come in/ I am waiting/ to see if we're gonna win/ come on, voters/ do what needs to be done/ I won't be satisfied/ till I'm sure that we've won/ it's coming down to the wire/ and soon we will know/ just what the country's made of/ just how far we can go/ help me be optimistic/ let me know we can win/ let the new president and his running mate/ begin
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it might be hard to conceive it/ but it's true/ I always had hope/ that tomorrow was coming/ there always was something/ fun to do/ but now those days have gone/ and I have quickly moved on/ to the winter of my years/ someday you'll be like me/ and all that you see/ will someday disappear/ you will not be here
I used to feel excitement/ but the joy of being alive/ vanished before my eyes/ and left me blue/ time went so fast/ all those years flew by/ in the single blink of an eye/ I never knew/ now take a look at me/ and all you will see/ are shades of gray in my beard/ someday you will be old/ days are short and nights are cold/ memories disappear/ you will not be here
(bridge) youth is wasted on the young/ I've heard that old cliche/ tears taste bitter on the tongue/ when it's almost time/ to go away
I used to be young/ a long, long time ago/ a time I used to know/ I was just like you/ you stand in my footsteps/ ignoring tomorrow/ time is only ours to borrow/ sad but true/ for me those days have passed/ and I am here at last/ with my last breath shifting gears/ someday you'll be like me/ and then, my friend, you'll see/ how quickly we all disappear/ you will not be here/ you will not be here
I used to be young/ I know you don't believe it/ it might be hard to conceive it/ but I was free and healthy/ just like you/ I always had hope/ that tomorrow was coming/ there always was something/ fun to do/ but now those days have gone/ and I have quickly moved on/ to the winter of my years/ someday you'll be like me/ and all that you will see/ will someday disappear/ you will not be here
I used to feel free/ but all I realized/ vanished before my eyes/ but I never noticed/ just like you/ time went so fast/ all those years flew by/ in the single blink of an eye/ no more chance of pulling through/ now take a look at me/ and all you will see/ are wrinkles and shades of gray/ you have no way of knowing/ but I'm at where you're going/ every day is one step near/ to the day when you are old/ days are short and nights are cold/ memories disappear/ you will not be here
(bridge) youth is wasted on the young/ I've heard that old cliche/ tears taste bitter on the tongue/ when it's almost time/ to go away
I used to be young/ a long, long time ago/ a time I used to know/ I was happy and hopeful/ just like you/ you stand in my footsteps/ measuring your talents/ not thinking about balance/ that's what I used to do/ but for me those days have passed/ and I am here at last/ with my last breath shifting gears/ someday you'll be like me/ you then, my friend, you'll see/ how quickly we all disappear/ there is nothing left to fear/ you will not be here
are you holding on tight?/ election day is almost here/ the candidates are fighting/ the time is getting near/ hopefully there'll be change/ my message is sincere/ we need someone new to fill/ the next four years/ 'cause in America/ we're going to survive/ in America/ we vote to save our lives
I want to live my life/ like it's my only life/ no matter what come after/ I want to feel/ the hopes and fears/ the sounds of pain and laughter/ is it too much to ask/ I know I'm up to the task/ is it my time at last/ to go where I am going
I want to live my life/ like it belongs to me/ no matter what anyone can say/ I want to feel/ the ups and downs/ of someone who intends to stay/ is it too much to need/ the experiences like those I read/ am I just another seed/ that has no way of growing
nothing ever fuckin' works/ no matter how I try/ everything fucks up for me/ it makes me want to cry/ all the bad luck I have had/ grows greater every single day/ I try to best to make it stop/ but it just won't go away/ what can I do to make it end/ I guess I can't/ I'll just pretend/ that somewhere I will find a friend/ who'll try to help me out/ I don't know what all this bad luck is about/ but it won't leave
I woke up early/ couldn't find my shoes/ so I stubbed my toe/ and wound up all confused/ that's how I got the early morning blues
ain't no good-for-nothing/ this day is not my friend/ so I spend every minute/ waiting for it to end/ I got the early morning blues/ I'm telling you once again
give me a reason/ tell me why my life is bad/ I could get me a princess/ I could be Sir Galahad/ I got the early morning blues/ the worst blues I've ever had
I have nothing to say/ but I'm going to say it anyway/ there is nothing but bad luck/ and it's here with me today/ everything I touch is wrong/ I always sing the same old song/ which is: who am I?/ I don't belong/ to anyone on this earth
I have nothing to do/ and nothing's what I give to you/ there is nothing but bad luck/ and it rings loud and true/ everything I touch is bad/ it's the worst news I have ever had/ none of these rules are iron-clad/ I still don't know my worth
today is my birthday/ I can do anything I want/ today is my birthday/ I can do anything I want/ you can take me out for supper/ at an expensive restaurant
today is my birthday/ please don't sing the birthday sone/ today is my birthday/ please don't sing the birthday song/ you know what I want?/ to play guitar all day long
(bridge) I'm gonna sleep late/ not be in a funk/ I'm gonna smoke a lotta weed/ and eat a lot of junk
today is my birthday/ I was born here, you see/ today is my birthday/ I was born on this day, you see/ so today is my birthday/ happy birthday to me
I am trying to be at peace/ but the problems refuse to cease/ and here I sit, worrying my life away/ I am trying to ease my stress/ but this living is just a mess/ here I sit, dreading another new day/ I should have stayed in bed/ that's the only way to get ahead/ as far as I can tell/ days, they drift in and out/ with no clue as to what they're about/ this life is a strange hotel/ and I am just a guest/ but I guess/ that's what I worry about least/ what I worry about/ is peace
I voted today/ I filled out my ballot/ as is my right to do/ I voted for president/ a new one this time/ now let's hope he pulls through/ because this country of mine/ could be doing just fine/ but, alas, that is not to be/ so I'll show my support/ for someone that'll work/ for both you and me
truth be told/ I'm old and I'm cold/ the temperature's dropping/ it's something to behold/ winter is coming/ and I'm staying inside/ the temperature's dropping/ and there's nowhere to hide
truth be told/ I'm sad and I'm old/ nothing turned out/ the way it was told/ winter is coming/ and I'm staying indoors/ the temperature's dropping/ like never before
(chorus) but you can keep me warm/ you can keep me warm
work is done/ time to play/ just what shall I do today?/ smoke some weed/ drink some beer/ any way to make it/ out of here/ your time of joy/ has just begun/ when work is done, when work is done
work is done/ the time is here/ to spend the night/ with someone dear/ dance all night/ sleep all day/ when love is real/ everything's okay/ you're right on top/ number one/ when work is done, when work is done
(chorus) work no more/ open the door/ and look at what's outside/ time for you/ to get a new point of view/ time for you/ to take a ride
work is done/ stress is through/ nothing left for you to do/ but take some time out/ for yourself/ you choose if there's/ anybody else/ you got trouble on the run/ when work is done, when work is done
So I already wrote part bob a song but this fuckin' computer fucked it up. It left me with the fucking title and got rid of the text. This fuckin' computer. I don't know what to fuckin' do. Every fuckin' step I take doesn't work out. I am so angry I could scream. I just took fuckin'; medication for it. Fuck, what am I supposed to do? Nothing ever fuckin' works out. I have the stupidest goddamn life of anybody I know. It's all just one fuckin' mistake after another Fuck this shit.
I am eating a Bartlett pear/ it did not grow in my backyard/ I know it was picked by hand/ by someone working really hard/ it's almost ripe and crunches/ but still is pretty sweet/ I just want the farmworkers to know/ I'm grateful for what I eat
on 82nd avenue/ the people there know what to do/ belongings inside shopping carts/ depending on some human hearts/ to help them in their time of need/ cardboard is the sign you read/ informing you of their hard times/ asking is still not a crime/ so you ask for money/ you ask for food/ those are questions on/ 82nd avenue
So I'm having one of those Sundays that drags on. I went for a walk, but I cut it short because it started raining. I don't let myself smoke weed until the evening, so now I'm just bored. I supposed I could read or something. I would love to eat something. I'm hungry.
So why don't you eat something, farmboy?
I might. I've been doing intermediate fasting -- I think that's what you call it -- but, of course, it doesn't seem like it's working. I'm trying to watch my eating because I'm just not using up very much energy during this pandemic.
I'm just frustrated. I'm always frustrated.
Is there anything else you can do today?
Play guitar. I haven't played guitar yet. I'm sure I'll do that before the afternoon is over.
I don't know, man. I feel like I want to take a fuckin' break from all the every-single-day shit, but I have no idea of what to do. I don't feel like playing guitar. I don't feel like reading. I don't know what I want to do, and my choices are few and far between. There just isn't anything to do that I don't already do.
Take a nap?
I'm not tired. I just want the day to go by. Isn't that a fuckin' shame? We've only got a certain amount of time on planet earth and I feel like I'm just wasting it today. But I just don't want to do anything.
Then don't do anything, farmboy. Give yourself a break.
Really? Can I do that.
Yes.
Well, then, that's what I guess I'm doing.
you are such a fuckin' piece of shit/ you're just wasting my time/ you are such a piece of shit/ you are no friend of mine/ every time I try to work/ you pretend that you are hurt/ and that's not the end of it/ you, my dear computer/ are a worthless fuckin' piece of shit
all your history/ made you what you are/ frightened, shy, and quiet/ sleeping in a speeding car/ you heeded all the warnings/ you followed all the rules/ and they all led up to this/ guess you're feeling like a fool
all your history/ put you on the path you're on/ sleep until the afternoon/ go to bed at dawn/ take a walk and look around/ for a well-travelled path/ sometimes when everything goes wrong/ all you can do is laugh
(bridge) this is where you're at right now/ this is how you've always been/ it's like you're at a window/ you're on the outside looking in
all your history/ has led you to this point/ have another scotch and soda/ smoke another joint/ just keep right on thinking/ something will go right/ maybe then you can sleep/ through the long and lonely night
I was looking for answers/ but I didn't have any questions/ it is no wonder/ I turned out the way I did/ I was always lonesome/ when I was growing up/ I was sad, strange, and sorry/ in other words, I was just a kid/ but now I'm grown/ I'm on my own/ forever searching for my home/ and the road in front of me/ is dark and never-ending/ now I know/ it hurt me so/ the times I spent pretending
(chorus) now I've taken the untravelled road/ if anyone should care/ I don't know where I'm going/ but I know I'm getting there
I am not worried/ I know nothing will be okay/ I've finally accepted/ life doesn't go the way/ that you want/ that you expect it to/ there's a lot of things/ that aren't up to you/ but that's okay/ it's another day/ on planet earth
there's no common sense/ in anything I do/ I've worked every damned day/ to make it through/ the endless problems/ that you face/ as a member of/ the human race/ but that's all right/you hold on tight/ on planet earth
(bridge) I'll never know/ exactly who I am/ but that won't stop me/ from doing what I can
three in the morning/ I'm trying to cope/ looking for a reason/ to not give up hope/ I'm doing my best/ I try and I try/ as the world spins/ another day goes by/ but that's okay/ I'm on my way/ on planet earth/ not much to say/ but I'm okay/ on planet earth
it was a normal day/ as normal as could be/ as normal as death and taxes/ as normal as me/ I was minding my own beeswax/ when much to my surprise/ standing there in front of me/ was a sight for sore eyes
(chorus) how're you down'/ how've you been/ some days it seems like/ I just can't win/ then I see/ you again/ and everything's all right/ my old friend
I am not worried/ I know nothing will be okay/ I've finally accepted/ that life won't go the way/ that you want/ that you expect it to/ there's a lot of things/ that aren't up to you/ but that's okay/ it's another day/ on planet earth
there is no sense/ in anything I do/ I work every day/ to make it through/ the endless problems/ that you must face/ as a member of/ the human race/ but that's all right/ I hold on tight/ to planet earth
(bridge) I'll never know/ exactly who I am/ but that won't stop me/ from doing what I can
it's one more morning/ of trying to cope/ looking for a reason/ to not give up hope/ I'm doing my best/ my hardest I try/ as the world spins/ another day goes by/ but that's okay/ I'm on my way/ on planet earth/ not much to say/ but I'm on my way/ on planet earth
I am not worried/ nothing will be okay/ I now accept/ that life won't go the way/ that you want/ you expect it to/ there's a lot of things/ that aren't up to you/ but that's okay/ it's another day/ on planet earth
there is no sense/ in what I do/ I'm only trying/ to make it through/ the endless problems/ that you must face/ as a member of/ the human race/ but that's all right/ hold on tight/ to planet earth
(bridge) I'll never know/ exactly who I am/ but that won't stop me/ from doing what I can
it's one more morning/ of trying to cope/ looking for a reason/ to not give up hope/ I'm trying my best/ my hardest I try/ as the world spins/ another day goes by/ but that's okay/ I'm on my way/ on planet earth
crow outside my window/ defending his domain/ talking up a fuss/ about something to complain/ don't try to confront him/ his temper is an art/ he knows how to make you pay/ you see, crows are pretty smart/ when they come to your home/ but crows will act just fine/ if you leave them alone
cold rain on the front porch/ from a hurricane's eye/ if you stay inside/ you just might stay dry/ but if you go out/ if you think you can hack it/ it's best to wear a hat/ and some kind of jacket/ you see, rain is pretty wet/ but if you stay at home/ the rain will be just fine/ if you leave it alone
I've done everything I'm supposed to do/ the chores are all done/ the time is right/ it's Friday night/ and the weekend's just begun/ forget the paycheck and the kids/ it's time to have some fun/ no matter what you think you are/ to me, your number one
(chorus) and the weekend has started/ I'm so openhearted/ that I'm falling in love with you/ all over again/ it's a natural reaction/ a dose of satisfaction/ I'm falling in love with you/ all over again
get your purse and put on lipstick/ we're going out tonight/ there's a nice place on the edge of town/ where they do everything right/ forget the worries/ let your mind rest/ c'mon and take a chance/ it's no longer time to stay at home/ Darlin', would you like to dance?
(repeat chorus)
a family is a full-time job/ there's just no way around it/ happiness can seem far away/ but tonight we have found it/ forget the job, responsibilities/ nothing will get in the way/ it's not the same old used-to-be/ the weekend starts today
(repeat chorus)
Another fuckin' day. It started out so promising. I met with my therapist over the telephone, I went for a good walk, I practiced. Everything was fine until I tried to write, then the fuckin' computer fucked up like it always does. Everything has to have a fuck-up, that's the main lesson that I've learned in life. It's fuckin' amazing anything happens that's decent. Most of my time is spent dealing with all the fuck-ups that happen in my life.
I'm so fuckin' tired of trying and trying and working and working and nothing ever seems to come out of it. That's all my life is -- nothing but frustration. Nothing happens. Only bad things. I'm now down to seeing my therapist every other week, because it costs too much. I had to say goodbye to my health coach this morning; my time is up, and I have to take a six-month break. As if I'm not isolated enough.
Someday, I tell myself, something really good is going to happen. All this work won't be for nothing and I'll have friends and this fuckin' pandemic will end. Then maybe a miracle will occur and I'll actually get to play my songs in front of people again. I just want to write songs and perform them -- is there anything wrong with that?
Maybe someday the bad luck will end. I'm still waiting.
no one knows me where I live/ people come and go/ strangers passing by/ neighbors I don't know/ I live here among them all/ they don't notice me/ they have no idea/ inside my apartment I see/ my secret world/ my secret world/ my secret world/ where I can be me
no one knows me where I work/ the cubicle's my home/ here, I am a working stiff/ here, I'm on my own/ I am one of a sea of servants/ they don't notice me/ they don't know my mind's away/ as far as it can be/ in my secret world/ my secret world/ in my secret world/ that only I can see
(bridge) I would ask you to come inside/ like I know I should/but there's no place to take a ride/ inside this neighborhood
no one knows me anymore/ my friends have all forgotten me/ I look for a familiar face/ but not a friend do I see/ but that's okay, I'm staying here/ where all is safe and sound/ it's better to be by myself/ without others standing around/ in my secret world/ my secret world/ in my secret world/ where there is only me
no one knows me where I live/ people come and go/ people with their dogs/ neighbors I don't know/ I live here among them all/ they don't notice me/ they have no idea/ inside my apartment I see/. my secret world/ where I can be me
no one knows me where I work/ my cubicle's my home/ here, I am a working stiff/ here, I'm on my own/ I work here among them all/ they don't notice me/ they don't know my mind's away/ as far as it can be/ in my secret world/ only I can see
child, you are loved/ although you may not know it/ and there are times that we don't show it/ we don't say it often enough/ child, you are loved
child, you make me smile/ when times are down and out/ you never leave a doubt/ and you last a long, long, while/ child, you make me smile
(bridge) and when I am old and gray/ it will be enough to say/ that I've loved you/ all your life/ and when time is at its worst/ and everything becomes a curse/ in the dark, your love brings me light
child, you are loved/ in a harsh and cruel land/ you help me understand/ no matter what life is made of/ child, you are loved
if I had a nickel/ for every time you've wronged me/ I would be a rich man right now/ and if I had a dollar/ for every feeling of longing/ I still wouldn't have enough to find out how/ I would up in this place I'm in/ bone and blood and faith and sin/ here I am/ back again/ and what I mess I'm in/ I was not born to win
why does everything I do/ always must turn up wrong/ how come everything I do/ doesn't fit where it belongs/ how come everything I do/ is such a crying shame/ please don't go/ all I know/ is I'm the one to blame
why is everything I say/ so misunderstood/ sometimes I think my head is just/ a block made out of wood/ why does life cut like a knife/ upon a grain of salt/ please don't go/all is know/ is it's my own damn fault
why does everyone I care for/always go sway/ is it true that there's no one who/ would volunteer to stay/ I'm here at home/ leave me alone/ with my sins and my Christian name/ please don't go/ all I know/ is I'm the one to blame/ please don't go/ all I know/ is I'm the one to blame
every fuckin' day/ I try to do the right thing/ and it never fuckin' works/ every fuckin' day/ I have to take medication/ because nothing fuckin' works/ no matter what I do/ no matter what I say/ nothing ever seems/ to go my way/ hey, life/ let me tell you what to do/ fuck you
child, you are loved/ you may not feel it/ but it's real, it's/ there for you if you want it/ right where it's always been/ you might forget about it/ but it will come back again
child, you are loved/ right now you don't need it/ but in time, you'll receive it/ right where it's always been/ you might think it's gone/ but it'll come back again/ I promise
this little light of mine/ I'm gonna let it shine/ tell you what I'll find/ something called peace of mind/ this little light of mine/ I do believe it's time/ let it shine, let it shine, let it shine
I am not a disease/ I'm gonna let it shine/ I'm gonna do just what I please/ with notes and chords and rhyme/ this little light of mine/ I do believe it's time/ to let it shine, let it shine, let it shine
today I went for a walk/ the sky was blue and the air was clear/ I was sitting at home doing nothing/ I said "I gotta get out of here"/ so I went to the door and opened it up/ preparing to go outside/ when a memory came out of nowhere/ to take me for a ride
but I didn't let that stop me/ my feet were itching to go/ some place where no one could stop me/ some place I don't even know/ but that memory wouldn't let go of me/ it came with me each step on the way/ and when I returned home/ I didn't have nothing to say
(chorus) oh dear Lord, please let me be/ take those memories away from me/ oh dear Lord, hear me out/ memories are not what I'm about
all I ever wanted/ was a life of my own/ where I could be myself/ where I could make my home/ in some peaceful valley/ where I am not in danger/ where somebody knows me/ where I am not a stranger/ the cold of this city/ chills me to the bone/ all I ever wanted/ was a life of my own
all that history/ you've experienced so far/ add up to make you/ whoever you are/ all those mistakes/ every wrong left-hand turn/ just give you another/ lesson to learn
(bridge) well, I've learned quite enough/ thank you/ I've had all I can take/ the road's been tough/ I've plowed through/ no victory do I make
Sandy sits alone at night/ she sees her face in the fading light/ the mirror cannot show/ everything she ought to know/ she dream of days yet to come/ where her problems fall, one by one/ and she believes that one day/ she'll be satisfied
Sandy tells stories to herself/ only she can hear them, there's no one else/ stories of romance and riches/ and son-of-a-bitch, it's hard to understand/ life does not go on as planned/ but she keeps working hard/ knowing she will go far/ she'll be satisfied
(bridge) what happens when dreams don't come true/ when wishes are garbage/ when hope is through/ when anything is never enough/ when there is no chance of any kind of love
I've already written something and this fuckin' computer got rid of it. I try to fuckin' do what I need to do, but something always fucks up. This computer, this goddamn worthless piece of shit.
Sandy sits by herself at night/ and sees her face in the fading light/ the mirror cannot show/ everything she ought to know/ she dream of days yet to come/ where her problems fall down, one by one/ and she believes that one day/ she'll be satisfied
Sandy tells stories to herself/ only she can hear them, there's no one else/ stories of romance and riches/ and son-of-a-bitch, it's hard to understand/ life does not go on as planned/ but she keeps working hard/ knowing she will go far/ she'll be satisfied
with my back against a tree/ I rest in the shade/ for one moment I am free/ from the mess my life has made/ I dream of how it should have been/ before losing, born to win/ home with family, dogs, and friends/ meet my children and my wife/ welcome to my other life
I think about what I've missed/ as I walk these city streets alone/ my mind's confused, but still insists/ I've never really found my home/ I think about the years gone by/ the saying's old, but time does fly/ leaving you alone to cry/ against the fading light/I hide in my other life
(bridge) to always live in fantasy/ that's what my life turned out to be/ falsehoods, lies, and fantasy/ are all I have to show
I don't know who I am/ barely human, filled with sorrow/ I don't know if I can/ lift my face to see tomorrow/ so I dream of what could be/ if I could change my history/ the old world laughs in front of me/ and misery cuts like a knife/ welcome to my other life
hair of gray/ sandpaper skin/ that he feels/ comfortable in/ it's lasted him/ eighty years/ and it still has not/ disappeared/ how do you do/ he says to you/ the man that hard life once knew/ no more weekly nine-to-five/ ain't it great to be alive
with my back against a tree/ I rest in the shade/ for one moment I am free/ from the mess my life has made/ I dream of how it should have been/ before losing, born to win/ home with family, dogs, and friends/ meet my children and my wife/ welcome to my other life
I think about what I've missed/ as I walk these city streets alone/ my mind's confused, but still insists/ I've never really found my home/ I think about the years gone by/ the saying's old, but time does fly/ leaving you alone to cry/ against the fading light/I hide in my other life
(bridge) don't leave me here to wonder why/ I stare up slowly to the sky/ I wish to God that I could cry/ sometimes
sometimes I don't know who I am/ barely human, filled with sorrow/ I don't know if I can/ lift my face to see tomorrow/ so I dream of what could be/ changes to my history/ there's a world in front of me/ but misery cuts like a knife/ welcome to my other life
with my back against a tree/ I rest here, in the shade/ for one moment I am free/ from the mess my life has made/ I dream of how it should have been/ before losing, born to win/ home with family, dogs, and friends/ meet my children and my wife/ welcome to my other life
I think about what I've missed/ as I walk these streets alone/ my simple mind still insists/ I've never really found my home/ I think about the days gone by/ the saying's old, but time does fly/ leaving you alone to cry/ out against its lies/I hide in my other life
(bridge) don't leave me here to wonder why/ I stare up slowly to the sky/ I wish to God that I could cry/ sometimes
sometimes I don't know who I am/ barely human, filled with sorrow/ I don't know if I can/ lift my face to see tomorrow/ so I dream of what could be/ changes to my history/ there's a world in front of me/ misery cuts like a knife/ so welcome to my other life
out among the rolling waves/ the rough and rocky open sea/ the storm clouds proudly misbehave/ as they take world from under me/ I smell danger/ I sound the warning/ inside my old aching head/ the world laughs before me/ as it strives to strike me dead/ to leave me rotting in my grave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the open waves/ it is there my future waits/ there is nothing left to save/ it takes all that it can take/ nobody knows that I am here/ there's no friends, no family/ if I were to disappear/ no one would know except for me/ no comfort will I crave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the rolling waves/ that is where I'll wait for you/ not out where the roads are paved/ not where land is mine to view/ the world laughs before me/ its cruelty is mine to bear/ I know faith will not ignore me/ not that anyone would care/ I do my best to be brave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the rolling waves/ the rough and rowdy open sea/ the storm clouds proudly misbehave/ in the world in front of me/ I smell danger/ I sound the warning/ inside my old aching head/ the world laughs there before me/ as it strives to leave me dead/ to leave me rotting in my grave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the open waves/ it is there my future waits/ there is nothing left to save/ it takes all it can take/ nobody knows I'm here/ no friends, no family/ if I were to disappear/ no one would know except for me/ the world laughs there before me/ knowing what it holds in store/ no one left to tell my story/ I'll be gone forevermore/ no comfort will I crave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the rolling waves/ that's where I will wait for you/ not out where the roads are paved/ not where land is mine to view/ the world laughs there before me/ its cruelty is mine to bear/ I know faith will not ignore me/ not that anyone would care/ I do my best to be brave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the rolling waves/ the rough and rowdy open sea/ the storm clouds proudly misbehave/ in the world in front of me/ I see danger/ I sound the warning/ inside my old aching head/ the world laughs there before me/ as it strives to leave me dead/ to leave me rotting in my grave/ there among the rolling waves
out among the open waves/ it's there my future waits/ there is nothing left to save/ it takes all it can take/ nobody knows I'm here/ no friends and no family/ if I were to disappear/ no one would know except for me/ the world laughs there before me/ knowing what it holds in store/ I'll be gone forevermore/ there among the rolling waves
I saw my shadow today/ I didn't recognize the sun/ the fires blew smoke upon our little town/ soot and ash on everyone/ what I would give for a clear blue sky/ I know it's coming by and by/ if I'm patient/ it will come
I've got my passport/ I've got money in the pockets of my jeans/ I'm not a nobody like you/ no, I'm a man of means/ I can turn Mondays into Fridays/ for all you working folks/ I've got power and I've got glory/ you can tell I ain't no joke/ I'm a world traveler/ this world's the only place I've known/ I'm always by my lonesome/ anywhere I am is somewhere I call home
out among the rolling waves/ the rough and rowdy open sea/ the storm clouds proudly misbehave/ in the world in front of me/ I see the danger/ I sound the warning/ inside my old aching head/ I salute the world there before me/ as it strives to leave me dead/ to leave me rotting in my grave/ there out among the rolling waves
Another day of fires here in Oregon. The sky is more than dreary; it's smoky and smells like a gigantic campfire. There's nothing good about this. I don't know when this will, literally, blow over. I'm hearing next week, but I'm also hearing that it will get worse. I don't know.
I don't know what I'm going to do today. Probably read a lot. Probably play guitar. I'm kinda hungry, but I'm doing that intermittent fasting stuff where you eat all your calories in an eight hour period. It kinda sucks but it's not too bad. I feel kinda bad because I'm not walking, but I know how unhealthy the air quality is, so I'm not going out there.
So, all in all, it's just another day, except it's got fires and smoke and there's a pandemic going on and our so-called president is a fuckin' asshole and I want him out of there in November. That's all. It's just another day in a great big world.
It is so fuckin' ugly outside. Fires are raging all over the west coast and 500,000 people have had too be evacuated here in Oregon. Thankfully, things are all right here, but it's very smoky and the sky is this weird orange-brown color. I'm not going for a walk today.
This sad, sad city. First we have all the political upheaval, all the protests, the fuckin' president -- I even hate to call him that -- using our city as a way to threaten the rest of the country...It's all too fuckin' much. It's fuckin' insane, that's what it is. I know things can't return to normal, but I sure wish they would. We're reaching new heights as far as bring shut-ins go. Can't go outside, can't see other people. This whole world is poison right now.
I've talked with my brother and sister in Southern California, and they're doing all right. It's kind of the same as here, actually. Everything's smoky and they're dealing with their grandkids attending school from home. Nothing is normal. I'm not sure what normal even means anymore.
It's been so strange for so long that I can barely remember what it used to be like. All my regular frames of reference are gone. I'm just hoping that this all comes to an end soon.
it's one of those days where everything goes wrong/ it's another day of my life/ waiting for things that will never happen/ even though I always think they might/ it's one of those days when nothing good happens/ and life is at its worst/ sometimes I think my life is/ not a blessing, but a curse
when the sun sets/ will you wait for me/ to come in from the fields/ after a long, hot day/ will you tell me that it's worth it/ working all your life/ for a harvest that may never come/ your way
when the moon rises/will you sit with me/and talk about your day/with the work that you do/will you tell me that it's worth it/ sacrificing now for/ a day that may never come/ something that may not be true
(bridge) do you have faith in me/ that I will do what's right/ do you have faith in me/ in the still and silent night
when the morning breaks/ will you ease my mind/ will you tell me/ hope is on its way/will you tell me that it's worth it/ taking everything on faith/ can you convince me/ that we will not fade away
I am waiting
for this computer
to quit double-spacing
when I want single spacing.
Just a simple little thing
that would help me write.
It's yet another road block
to meeting my potential.
I didn't want to wake up/ I wanted to stay in bed/ I wanted to pull the blankets/ up over my head/ and pretend that I/ didn't have to work/ I'll stay here in bed/ where I can't be hurt/ and the hours will pass/ and I will, at last/ be at peace
I didn't want to call you/ I didn't want to talk/ I wanted to find some place/ where I can take a walk/ to another country/ to another land/ to another morning/ where I can be who I am/ and the hours will fly/ to a time where I/ can be at peace
(bridge) and I will sleep/ till I can't sleep anymore/ and I will sleep/ the way I used to sleep before/ all this trouble/ knocked on my door
I didn't want to worry/ so I fell asleep instead/ those pills the doctor gave me/ did a number on my head/ so I will dream/ the dreams of the sane/ knowing that bad luck/ has memorized my name/ and the hours will pass/ and I will, at last/ be at peace
nothing is right/everything's wrong/nothing is where/it's supposed to belong/everything's wrong/nothing is right/any time's good for a Saturday night
I put in my hours/I play by the rules/I swallowed the lies/that they told me in school/so don't get me started/unless you want to fight/it's the perfect time/ for a Saturday night
(bridge) hand me that bottle/get me some pills/I'm gonna make this world/bend to my will
fuck all these voices/inside of my brain/I'm looking at silence/I'm drunk in the rain/I'm callused and trying/with all of my might/any time's good for a Saturday night/any time's good for a Saturday night
truth be told/I'm not sure about a lot of things/I don't know what the future will bring/but I'm getting old/I've heard that winter turns to spring/but I don't think that is happening/I still feel cold/truth be told
truth be told/around here life doesn't change/it's merely time to rearrange/but I'm getting old/patience is not my strong suit/my pockets are not filled with loot/it's getting kinda old/truth be told
I know there were some problems/but how was the play, mrs. Lincoln?/I know you had other issues/there was something else you were thinking/but we worked hard rehearsing our roles/such is the state of the art/I hope you enjoyed our play, Mrs. Lincoln/ at least until everything fell apart
I look for a silver lining/but all I see is gray/the storm is coming soon/the rain is on its way/people say it's normal/but I say give me sun/no matter what the future holds/my problems have just begun
I look for a silver lining/but there's none that I can see/there is no relief from/the bad luck that follows me/nothing ever happens/unless it's bad or worse/I don't know if this living/is a blessing or a curse
(bridge) maybe happiness is just a myth/I've got nothing here I can work with
I look for a silver lining/maybe there's one that I have missed/but I starting to get the feeling/that they really don't exist
no one tells you how hard love is/how awful it fails, it's the worst/Love is the bane of society/Love is a blessing and a curse/'cause love can disappear like that/leave you busted, broken, and flat/that, my friend, is not where it's at/there is no silver lining
october is on its way/and the leaves are turning brown/nothing gold can stay/when you're the cold, hard ground/everyone is packing up/looking for a place to land/the miles, they are racking up/and I cannot understand/why time has to move so cruel/why time is nobody's fool/october is closing in/and I cannot obey
I am standing by myself/in my corner of the world/and I am looking for a reason/to be right where I am/there is nobody close by me/in my corner of the world/so I know that I can do/anything I know I can
It was okay today/nothing like the day before/where nothing worked out my way/I tell you brother, I was sore /is it a god I must anoint/maybe I need karma points/but that day is over, that's for sure/let's carry on just like we did before
it was okay today/not like my entire life/where I spent my time a-wandering/pledging darkness in the nights it my fault for being born/is that why I'm so forlorn?/wait, that's all finished, that's for sure/let's carry om just like we did before
it was okay today/I wasn't in a hurry/for once in my dismal life/I didn't have too worry/but that was not enough for me/I need the blues to keep me company/I'm still complaining, that's for sure/let's carry on just like we did before
Man, this is so fuckin' aggravating. Every day it seems like I do the same things, over and over again, and I don't want to do any of them. I don't want to walk, I don't want to practice, I don't want to write, I don't want to eat right. I want to have a cheeseburger and fries and watch bad TV. I want to be around people a little bit. I want a fuckin' surprise that's good once in a while. What the fuck am I going to do?
I don't know, farmboy. What the fuck are you going to do?
I don't have a fuckin' clue. I just returned from my walk, there's that. It's too bad that I hate walking. It's nice outside-- 81 degrees -- and the sky is blue and beautiful. Why do I just want to stay indoors all the time? I don't know. But I went and did it and now that it's over, I'm glad I did. I just wish I had something different to do, that's all. I wish I didn't have to be so fuckin' alone all the time.
I know it's hard, farmboy. It's hard to be patient, especially with this pandemic going on. Everyone is feeling the stress.
I know. I feel bad for everyone. It's just...it's Sunday and I still have all this fuckin' work to do and nothing ever changes. But my walk is over and I'm almost finished with the stuff I have to do today. I'll get through it. I just wish there could be something different.
